Why? Why? Why?

I'm feeling so down now. Just wish that you could have more time with me. That's all i asked for.
A day that we could go out and walk away, chill around, drink and get wasted. But there's no more i guess.

I'm so lost.
I feel like screaming and crying out loud ):

What are we?

Will this time-off for the both of us help? Or will it cause our feelings to be faded?

I am trying very hard not to text or call you. I wonder will you make it a first move?

Will i be the only girl you love only? Will i be the one in your heart?

Will i be able to hold you again? Will you be mine again?

I miss you

Lastly, I love you still.

Amarudin <3

Time off?

Didn't get to update about yesterday.
So i'll do a rough summary then.
Headed out to meet amar<3>over at his school,

bus 45 after that to his place.
Waited for him to change and bathed for him to get ready for work and

syaeed came down too.
Took a cab and they dropped me

at bedok inter and met up with fid.
Saw qiuxian love and catch up a little.
Headed to central coffeeshop to meet up with azri and afiq.
Ate tofu and met cherryl.
Slacked awhile and 31'ed to lagoon to eat.
Faz tagged along too.
Ate and chit-chatted, sakinah came down then.
Went over to water-breaker and talk and took photos.
Slacked till 8 plus and bus 197'ed to inter and

headed to 201 with cherryl, azri, afiq and fid.
Ban came down too followed by suying.
Ate mac then and was suppose to go riding

but plan got cock up.
So amar<3>

and picked me and cabbed home.

My leg muscle was aching till i couldn't really walk ):

luckily baby was there (:

and home around 3+ am.

-----03.07.2009

Today woke up around 11 plus,

watched television and ate my lunch at home.

Did nothing much and bought milla down for a walk and headed home.

Played computer and listen to music while resting on my bed.

Chatted with fid online, and faz called .
Plan to stay home today cause i'm really broke!
And dad is only coming back tomorrow ):
hope my mom's gonna give me some cash!? ): ):

Extra classes

Was suppose to have extra lesson at 10am and I woke up late at 10plus going to 11am. Woke up quickly and rushed.
Showered everything and get mom to send me down to school.
Saw cherry syg, march,gerlin,kerina,beatrice,lisabelle,jolene,windy,huiting,clarrise etc. Did medicure & pedicure for the lecturers and I didn't do on any.
I was late and after that,
went lunch with cherry,beatrice,kerina and march.
Ate mee rubus, that cost just$1.50!
Slacked and chit chat a little,
went out of school after that and cabbed down to find baby.
Sort things out and am glad we're better now.
Talked and challenge game with baby and ate again at his place.
Waited for him to have his shower while i packed up his place.
Cabbed home while baby cycled to work.
I'm so happy and glad everything is okay between me and him.
Reached home and get a tonic drink and twistie.
Played with milla(my dog) and am here blogging.
Will be having dinner at this restuarant with mummy later! :D
& also
Should be heading down to bedok later at night to chill around with friends (:

I'm so blessed to have you, Babyboy <3

I miss baby, he is working now ):
And i'm craving for gong-gong! AHHHHH :/

Fixing a broken heart

Hey everyone, I created a blog once again (:

Well, who knows how long will I change to another blog again?

Holidays for me is gonna end soon and school is gonna start next week.

I'm really excited and can't wait to catch up with my lovely classmates esp cherry bby ! Holidays have been spending with different people,

but am glad i did many catching up with some lost friend ?

Haha, am happy.

Most importantly, i've been spending most of the time with amar<3>

But recently, quarrels happened to us.

And definetly the feeling sucks ballzzz!!

What to do?

Love always like this.

But i can't denied that I love him deeply in my heart.

Even thou sometimes break up was mention, my heart still couldn't bear to.

I guess this is true love?..

Am currently listening to the song : Fixing a broken heart (Haiz )

There was nothing to say
the day she left
just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I held a taxi in the rain looking for someplace to ease the pain
Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found u there
you really know where to start
fixing a broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools
can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart fixing a broken heart
Now I don't understand what
I'm going through there must be a plan
that lead me to you
because the hurt just disappeares in every moment that you are near
Just like an answered prayer
you made the loneliness easy to bear
You really know where to start
fixing my broken heart
you really know what to do your emotional tools
can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart
fixing a broken heart
Surely the wind will stop falling baby
and I'll forget the past '
cause here we are at last
you really know where to start
fixing a broken heart
you really know what to do your emotional tools
can cure any fool whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart... fixing a broken heart

Shall update again tomorrow. I hope things will get better between me and baby ):